Life: The Beautifully Uncontrolled

I haven't nearly experienced the amount of life that I want to, but throughout the seventeen years I have experienced, I've learned a lot.

I've learned that life will come swinging at you while you're sleeping, while you're in the shower, and even while you're enjoying an ice cream sandwhich on a cool summer evening. Talk about being caught off guard.

Today, I was caught off guard. I'm so used to being in control; from what clothes goes in my laundry basket to what my little sister wears out, I'm always in control. More recently than before, I've been relying more on myself than anybody else. I wanted to do everything alone, I didn't want help from anybody. I believed that I could and would be self-sufficient. I won't get into the gruesome details, but let's just say I was being an ignorant little fool. Then, like the kind dude life is, life knocked me right off my feet and left me there. Luckily, despite the fact that I've been a selfish prick, my family and more importantly, God was there to pick me up off my feet.

While I was still on the floor, Life handed me an envelope with an evil bug from Krypton (probably one of General Zod's little schemes) in it, and he said, "Deal with it".

And you know what? I am going to deal with it. In fact, I'm going to deal the hell out of it.

Sometimes it takes people a lifetime to change, and sometimes it takes a heartbeat. If it takes a change to deal with that godforsaken bug, then I will change. But not alone. I've neglected the person that loves me no matter how many times I curse His name for far too long. I need to go back, and I know it's not going to be easy, but I know I can do anything when God's awesome hands are there to pick me up when life pushes me down.

I've started a blog to help me express myself to some other earthly beings so that they can help me and, hopefully, I can help them along the way as well.

Life may push us down, but we all know that after he does, he comes back around and hands us another envelope filled with all the amazingness of life.