They say what doesn't kill you only make you stronger, but does it really?
I realized that most of my blog posts are quite morbid, but I'm working on making my life a little sunnier, I really am.
Right now, my life pretty much sucks. I mean, it could be worse, I could be getting beat or be starving, but even though I'm perfectly intact and my stomach is satisfied, life still sucks. Why, you ask, does my life suck so much? Excellent question, you. Well, for starters, I have a motivation level of zero, so getting work done is about ten times more difficult. Secondly, my grades suck. They suck because I have zero motivation to do anything other than watch eight straight episodes of "Grey's Anatomy". Lastly, I'm so stressed out about my college applications, that I've been avoiding them for the last three weeks. It's a sad cycle; I'm stressed out because my apps aren't finished, and I avoid my apps because I'm stressed out.
So, my life is pretty blue right now. I've hit such a low point that I'm doing the only thing that makes my mood a little better: I'm listening to Christmas music. Yeah, it's gotten that bad. (When I hit rock bottom, I add a slurpie to that equation.)
Now to get into the deep stuff.
When I'm depressed or mad, I like to listen to what I call "feel good" songs. For example, in my "Feel Good" playlist, I have Katy Perry's "Roar", Sara Bareilles' "Brave", Daniel Powter's "Bad Day", and lastly, Kelly Clarkson's "What Doesn't Kill You (Stronger)". So, while I was stress cleaning my room, that last song played, and it got me thinking, does what doesn't kill you really make you stronger? After a bit of pondering, I've come to the conclusion that, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger only when pick yourself up when it pushes you down. By it, I'm referring to life... or the things that life throws at you. And so, returning back to my sad, sad life, how do I pick myself up again? Where am I supposed to find motivation? How can I just start being a good student? Any suggestions? Help a fellow human out, we have to stick together.
